Everything I know about breaking hearts I learned from you

Thu, 01 Dec 2005 20:37:40 GMT

i give up.
no more

Selana and stuff

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 02:31:30 GMT

A- Age of your first real kiss: I think.....17? haha and it was the "dark boy" haha

B- Band you are listening to right now: Watching Selena..she is singing in Spanish
C- Crush: Kevin,the reallllly cute boy from the party last night

D- Dad's name: Salvatore aka Sal haha

E- Easiest person to talk to: I'm not gonna lie, I can talk to anyone really...haha

F- Favorite ice cream: MINT chocolate chip

G- Gummy worms or Gummy bears? aren't they made with some kind of animal parts?!

H- Hometown: Skippack..

I- Instruments: I played the flute..keyword playED

J- Junior high: Perkiomen Valley

K- Kids: I like kids that aren't mine..mostly b/c you can give them back!

L- Longest car ride: Virginia....but it was A LOT of fun! And it went by realy fast.

M- Mom's name: Roxannnne
N- Nicknames: Lyla,D,Daleeeelas,D to the Lyla,LylaLylaLyla,Lambchop..Chop,Chopsky...Chopinsky haha

O- One wish: I wished for 7+ years to meet BSB, so I'm gonna wish for 5 more years for this one....but if I say it..it won't come true.

P- Phobia: Clowns, falling on my face, being shot in the face,spiders

Q- Quote: "what good is tomorrow without a guarantee"-bsb

R- Reasons to smile: my friends? pepperan
S- Song you danced to last: aaah i dance non-stop, i dont remember

T- Time you woke up today: Welll...I went to bed at 6 (damn drunk kid) woke up at 7:42 (i love you jess) went back to sleep around 9:30 and then woke up a lil after 2

U- Unknown fact about me: i honestly don't know

V- Vegetable[s] : brocoli is the best
W- Worst luck with: boys,keeping my hair straight,winning stuff

X- X-rays you've had: foot,mouth

Y - Years since you've been to church: do funerals count? I think I went to church with Andrew like 2 May's ago

Z- Zodiac sign: Aries

"are you seriously STILL talking?!"-Val

haha wow, my HFT girls make me laugh so much!

i feel homeless

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 15:58:57 GMT

I'm in the library, I have to meet Annie for lunch soon. I just woke up from a nap...that I took in a cubicle. My nose hurts because it was against a book that I wasn't reading.

There's a cute boy 3 computers away from me.

Last night at the bar I hardcore poked myself in the eye with my jacket sleeve. It was watering like crazy and I couldn't open it. So Sarah was blowing in it. haha.

I HATE RAIN.

Procrastination....

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 18:33:25 GMT

1. Do you still talk to the person you lost your virginity to?
That's open to interpretation....we have a hate/dislike relationship.

2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons?
give them to people who need spoons?!

3. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
um i dunno probably oldies cuz that's what my mom listens to.

4. What is the best thing about your current job?
i don't have one...i'd say that's the best thing.

5. Do you wish cell phone etiquette was required in class?
huh?

6. Are you against same sex marriage?
nope. i hope to make becka my "life partner" some day hahah ;-)

7. Have you been on a date in the past week?
I haven't been on a date in over a year!

8. Where are you going on your next vacation?
I wanna go to Hawaii REAL BAD.

9. Quote a song lyric, because I told you to...
"take my photo off the wall if it just won't sing for you..."

10. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
new and old...some since 5th grade or middle school and new..college.

11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
I do not.

12. Do you like your parents?
i loooove my parents.

13. Do you still live with them?
I guess I do, over the summer and holidays and such.

14. What state/country are you from?
PfreakinA,USA...obviously

15. Tell us about the last conversation you had.
it was with Lex and we were saying bye.

16. Where do you see yourself in one month?
sitting here at my desk like usual.

17. What is your favorite smell?
Hollister Perfume....Tacos...Very Sexy for him

19. Do you consider yourself bi-polar?
negative

20. What is the time and the outside temperature at the moment?
2:18....warm?

21. Have you ever done anything vindictive to your coworkers?
haha no.

22. Have you ever gone to therapy?
haha no, but i probably should haha

23. Have you ever Played Spin the Bottle?
nope :-(

24. Have you ever Toilet papered someone's house?
uh no

25. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
yes

26. Have you ever gone camping?
When I was little I used to go with the Frisco's alll the time...and occassionally I camp in Alex's yard.

27. Have you ever had a crush on your sister's friend?
My sister has no guy friends...so no.

28. Have you ever been to a nude beach?
don't plan on it.

29. Have you ever had sex on the beach?
no..wouldn't sand get badd places?!

30. Have you ever had a stalker?
nope...

31. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
def. not

32. Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
Yes, that happens like everyday....I live with LC!

33. Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only sober one?
umm yeah like all the FREAKIN time at Jays...thats what you get when you have a bf who drinks too much.

34. Have you ever been cheated on?
haha i think i have

35. Have you ever had sex with one of your myspace friends?
uuh no f'in way.

36. Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend?
yeah, but they aren't my best friend anymore!

37. Have you ever felt like you were just completely rhino raped?
i have NO idea what that means.

38. Have you ever lied to your parents?
i probably have fibbed occassionally.

39. Have you ever been out of the US?
nooooooo...and i'm 21 and 1/2 how pathetic.

40. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
what!? I don't work out..haha

41. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for?
i don't wear hats, but my last haircut made me cry.

42. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in 1 day?
i do not think so...at least i hope not

43. Have you ever gotten so wasted you didnt know what was going on?
yes..more than once

44. Have you ever spied on someone you had a crush on?
spied? no drove by their house? HAHAHA i think every living female has done that at least 30 times. right lyla bird ?! hahah I have to KEEP this answer...so TRUE Shirkens!! "DO YOU THINK HE SAW US?!?"

45. Have you ever slept with one of your coworkers?
they are girls..what do you think?

46. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
no, but ali saw me naked once...then again,so did everyone at the beach that day!

hahah

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 17:13:03 GMT

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it's been awhile

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 23:54:43 GMT

hmm it's been quite some time since I wrote in this piece here...

What's new and interesting with me? Umm I went to the hospital friday morning at like 6 AM that bit the largest one to say the very least. After hours of being violated, they came to the conclusion that I have a bladder infection...yay.

I love AS 319 a looott.

LizCrowe laughed for about a 1/2 hr over the definition of crank,it is funny tho.

school would be better if we didn't have homework.

I'm really f'in tired.

i guess that's all.

thoughts on "love"

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 16:59:48 GMT

maybe it sucks that i don't believe in love. maybe i'll change my mind who knows?

in your head

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 20:33:31 GMT

i think i'm gonna be alone forever.

oh well.

maybe I'm like a kitten, everyone loves kittens but as soon as they grow into cats...noone wants them anymore.

everybody knows that I was such a fool.

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 16:09:04 GMT

following directions is not that hard. gr.

I heart bsb.

my head kinda hurts.

that's about it.

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 19:16:38 GMT

100 things about me:

1. First grade teacher's name: Mr. Kellon

2. Last person you kissed: kissed kissed? unfortunately for me:Sean

3. Last phrase you said: "yucky tasha!!" she was eating chapstick from my purse

4. Last song you sang: Lifehouse-take me away (acoustic)

5. Last person you hugged: probably Lex?

6. Last thing you laughed at: probably something on tv..

7. What's in your CD player: in the car, ashlee simpson and bsb

9. What socks are you wearing: none

10. What's under your bed: too much junk
11. Current status: s-i-n-g-l-e

12. Current taste: pizza fries

13. Current hair style: in a pony tail

14. Current clothes: AE Charmer tee
15. Current Job: I was an assistant teacher at a daycare

16. Current longing:school!!

17. Current desktop picture: b-rok from the day I met them in NYC

18. Current worry: how all my shiz is gonna fit in my room at school

19. Current hate: boys

20. Story behind your username: i'm fly, i'm a girl and my name is lyla...actually I think Ali made it up back in the day...

21. Current favorite article of clothing: J. Crew belt...white pants

22. Favorite physical feature(s) of the opposite sex: body, butt, legs...cheek bones

23. Last CD that you bought: bsb-never gone for a bday present

24. Favorite place to be: the mall!? haha so kidding, i have no idea

25. Least favorite place: I really don't know, I would say work, but I kinda miss it now

26. Time you wake up in the morning: like 10:26ish

27. If you could play a new instrument, what would it be?: I dunno...piano I think

29. Current favorite word/saying: tince, true that, drop,f'in...

30. Favorite book: I dunno

31. Favorite Movies: Napoleon Dynamite, A lot like Love,How to Deal....

32. Favorite Songs: bsb-crawling back to you, i still...,anything by them really.

34. One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: too many I think

35. Favorite day: at school:wednesday! and the weekends
36. Where do you want to go: disney world haha

37. What is your career going to be: I'm not quite sure?
39. What kind of car will you have: B-M-W!!!!!!!!!!!

40. A random lyric: "never gone, never far"

41. Eye Color: Brown....yuuuck.

42. Hair Color: Brown, darkkkk

43. Righty or Lefty: righty

45. Zodiac Sign: Aries

46.Innie or Outtie: Innie

DESCRIBE...

47. Your heritage: 50% Italian..and some other stuff...

48. The shoes you wore today: white flip-flops from AE

49. Your hair: a little past my shoulders and layered...dark

50. Your weakness: andrew (i knowwwwww), bsb,brown eyes...

51. Your fears: not being successful, dying alone...

52. Your most recent secret?: i'm not gonna say it IS a secret!

54. Your thoughts first waking up: how many days left?! I miss Shirkens

55. The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: butt, eyes

56. Your bedtime: whenever i fall asleep

57. Your most missed companion: becka, shirk, ali, annie (anyone I havent seen in awhile......)

58. Your perfect pizza: i like pizza fries

59. Sweet and Chewy or Salty and Crunchy: sweet, i dunno about that chewy stuff..

60. Single or group dates: no dates, dates are for pussies...yes I said it.
61. Dogs or Cats: i love all animals

62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Neither, I friggin hate iced tea

63. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate!

64. Cappuccino or coffee?: cappuccino mixed with hot chocolate...

DO YOU...

65. Smoke: Nopers

66. Curse: when I'm p i s e d haha

67. Sing: I shouldn't but yesss

68. Take a shower everyday: uum, uuuh haha I try

69. Have a crush: Kevin thats about it. BOYS SUCK.

71. Think you've been in love: no.

72. Want to go to college: i do, but i wanna be there RIGHT Now

73. Want more than what you got: this is hard, i would say no, i get everything I want when I want it (drop), but I would like a car.

74. Want to get married: no, commitment is fake.
75. Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: No, but I do type fast (and I don't look..haha annie i love you)

76. Think you're attractive: negative

77. Think you're a health freak: hahah noo, but i did spend 11$ on vitamins today!
78. Get along with your parents: I do, i love mi madre and padre

79. Play an instrument: once upon a time I played flute
IN THE PAST 3 months:

80. drink: yess i have
81. Smoke: Nope

82. Done a drug: Nope

83. Made Out: yes...yuck.
84. Go on a date: no my last bf sucked

85. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no i havent

86. Eaten sushi: not since school ended :-(
87. Been dumped: well technically no, the guy had no balls..so would that mean we are still together!? haah

88. Made homemade cookies: nope

89. Been in love: NO

90. Gone skinny dipping: negative
91. Dyed your hair: nah
92. Stolen anything: nope

HAVE YOU EVER..

93. Had too much to drink: i have

94. Been caught cheating: Never did

95. Been called a tease: not to my knowledge
96. Gotten beaten up: no way jose

97. Changed who you were to fit in: i don't think so
98. Cried at something beautiful: if meeting BSB is beautiful then yes

99. Spent too much money on something you didnt need?: YOU BETCHA!
100. Cried when someone died: i have..

procrastination over..

i think i miss you the most on Sundays and Wednesdays

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 01:43:49 GMT

I saw my other half yesterday and it was wonderful. We do bring out the best in each other, which isn't hard b/c we are already perfect! Anyway, it was a very good day with the best lady in the world.

Sooooo in 3 days I'll be in my apartment!! I cannot wait!

My dog really is a cutie...

I saw my fave little boy at work today, I miss some of those kids a lot.

I felt like I had a lot to say...

can't wait to "r-o-c-k in the a-p-t"

tomorrow is the 26th.

so much more than I could

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 03:07:52 GMT

can i keep you33: ps- don't forget you're my best friend in the whole wide world

JP my superspesh turned 20 today!!!

with you...hope was restored.

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 01:18:25 GMT

I still wait for the phone to ring in the middle of the night. . .thinking you might call me if your dreams don't turn out right and it still amazes me that I lie here in the dark, wishing you were next to me, your head against my heart.

I don't know what it is about you, I just remember how it was. I don't know why red fades before blue, it just does. And I don't know what keeps me holding on to you...I just keep thinking someday you will make it all up to me, and maybe...someday you will...

sometimes i feel like i'm still standing in my garage watching you walk away.

3-4 weeks?

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 06:05:37 GMT

sometimes i wonder why i have such good friends, and they put up with me.

i tripped over a chair, im so embarrassed.

i cried.

i'm such an idiot sometimes.

14 months.

BSB TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i knew it was me.

maybe, i wish i didnt feel this way, i dunno tho.

around 30 is when u get married

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 22:29:31 GMT

i hate hate and despise The Strokes, but I still cannot make myself delete them from my computer.

today a five year old girl was CRUSHED when a boy told her he didnt wanna marry her. he is 6 and already hurting girls-boys make me sick.

i felt for her, i really did.

back to IU not soon enough!

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 02:30:55 GMT

i was pissed before but now it's even worse.

i will never ever give in again, i was right before there is no reason to be with someone, commitment doesnt exist.

i let myself like you and i didnt want to but i did for some odd reason...

but i was RIGHT.

never ever ever ever again.

relationships are for losers.

never trust anyone.

AND

i do not believe in love or feelings

you may say im bitter, but the SAME thing happens EVERY FREAKING TIME.

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 01:24:30 GMT

i give up.

i bet even joanie and chachi and lady and the tramp and beauty and the beast weren't really in love after all.

it's July 9th

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 17:51:23 GMT

i am way too involved in other people's lives and business, especially people they have nothing to do with me.

oh well, guess that means I need my own life.

today is saturday.

haha i know exactly what i was doing last year on this day..weird.

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 15:42:47 GMT

i dunno about this summer.

at least the happiest moment of my life happened.

how many days til school starts?!

where is your heart?!

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 18:19:00 GMT

My obligation free life ends on Tuesday, I have mixed feelings about this...

BUT on the plus side, I will have money, I will spend that money on anything I want.

I have something in mind that I wanna buy for myself on August 1st...if I earn it....

I think it's kinda like when I was a little girl and I refused to leave my mom in the morning to get on the bus, because I missed her too much. The guidance counselor suggested to my mother that she buy me one new toy for every day of the week that I got on the bus. Because I love new stuff, this was a fabulous idea!

I decided I would re-use the counselors advice and apply it to my life right now. If I accomplish my goal I will buy myself something really nice!

Maybe you think this is wrong for whatever reason, but for me...stuff makes me happy. Stuff can't make me cry or not call me or hurt my feelings. New stuff puts happiness into my heart...so in 1 month if I can do what I've been trying to do...I will have what I want! And will probably be really happy.

hahah I make myself laugh.

I am really not in the mood to fold clothes.

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 00:30:47 GMT

i hope it rains.

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 22:14:25 GMT

"It's there, I know it is, because when I look at you, I can feel it. I look at you and I'm home. I don't want that to go away, I don't want to forget."-Dory, Finding Nemo

I did forget.

oh well,

are you gonna let me in?

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 03:31:49 GMT

I'm happy I have friends who make me smile as much as mine do...even when I'm being weird and strange and just not happy or friendly...

The last 2 days really were so much fun.

Even though I had the same feeling in my stomach that won't go away...

Drunk Shirkens kills me.

Falling down the steps--not so smooth.

Dance Party needs to happen soon!

I just smiled and said “Let go of me.”

...380 days later.

"it is a pleasure to meet you"

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 19:03:57 GMT

AJ Mclean from the Backstreet Boys said that to me yesteday!

After waiting in line for hours and hours 10:30 PM to 8:00 AM, then 4:00 PM to whenever BSB finally came out I FINALLY met them after 8 years of waiting. Lex, Tammy and I stood in line right next to a pile of trash for hours. Then we were forced to get up and move forward then move back, then move forward then move back. I think they were playing games with us because they were bored or something, who knows, but it was not amusing. Then they crammed us into a tiny little spot and it was almost impossible to sit down. It was so hot and sticky and we were all smelly and dirty and my hair was frizzy, so I looked like crap for BSB but I would do anything for them...it was all worth it once I got up onto that stage where BSB was sitting.

I was crying so much, I like couldnt breathe. The security guard said I had to calm down and he said "do you want them to see you cry?" Another one took my album booklet and put it in front of Brian...when I stepped in front of me and he looked at me I could have died! He asked me if I was gonna be ok, and he asked who my friends were. I could barely speak so I kept saying "you make me so happy! Thank you!" and he shook my hand and pulled me closer to him so he could give ME a hug!! After Brian signed my CD Nick was next. I just continued my "you make me so happy, thank you" speech haha and he said "oh your welcome baby" haha and shook my hand! He was soo cute, for some reason I was pretty nervous in front of him especially (even though Kevin is my fave) After Nick, was AJ and he said,"how are ya?" I said,"I'm good, how are you?" and he said, "I'm great, thanks it is a pleasure to meet you." THEN came KEVIN! This is where I almost lost it completely I got in front of him and he looked up at me and I was crying hysterically and he was just smiling and the only thing I could say was "you are my favorite!!" and he said, "thank you!" and then of course I continued with "you make me so happy thank you.." and he kept saying "thank you" back to me and then when he shook my hand, like Brian he put his arm around me and pulled me closer to him and hugged me. It was amazing, I could never express how happy that made me...it was awesome, super, wonderful..everything!! Howie was last at the table, and I feel bad because Sweet D. didn't seem super happy....I wonder what was up with that. Anyway He signed my CD and I said "thank you Howie" he looked up at me smiled and wink (Howie is good at that!) and said "your welcome" and then he shook my hand. I touched all of the backstreet boys!! Even though I was having a small (ok pretty huge) cow in front of them,I looked at all of them because I didnt want to ever forget. Kevin has the prettiest green eyes ever, and I will never forget what it felt like to finally look into them. The Backstreet Boys really are amazing, they are so nice and handsome and talented. I can't believe my dream FINALLY came true!!

Yesterday was the best day of my whole life. I think Tammy and Lex had fun too! Besides meeting BSB we walked around and we even took a nap in Central Park haha. We ate at Tammy's favorite pizza place. Oooh and we watched TRL outside too. Haha that was interesting. "that's brad pitt!" haha oh my god.

AND we saw AJ in an Escalade right after we bought our CD's and we were walking. Lex screamed "IT's AJ!!!" and I screamed "OMG AJ!!" and I ran towards the car window, still screaming...he turned his head and waved at me haha.

i heart bsb forever...KTBPA!

Never Gone is amazing...but I knew it would be!!

because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 03:30:04 GMT

I heart Kelly Clarkson's CD soooooooooo much.

I cannot wait until Tuesday.

Monday is gonna suck though.

Good thing I learned 2 years ago not to hold my breath for you...I'd be dead if I did.

I have 4 days left to care. Actually 3.

I'm gonna try really hard this time, I mean it.

Immaculata is so good at screwing everything up.

I really hope Andrew (FROM SOCO) is ok, he is so special, it's so sad he is sick :-(

I have a lot of cute pictures from my night with Ames P and Shirkens, I have to put them somewhere so my memory card is clear for BSB.

"because of you I'm afraid"